I walked through the hotel doors toward my room
and passed through the lobby,
making way through to the courtyard,
past the swimming pool
where I saw people smiling,
drinking beer and dropping names
and laughing at each other's jokes
and I wanted to scream at them,
over the dull roar of my headphones:
"How can you laugh
at a time like this?
Do you have any idea
how far away I am from home?"